Even in My Pain, I Trust You

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Samantha Taylor
Samantha Taylor Fitness

Many times it’s tragedies in life that test what we truly believe. I know this more than ever because it’s been over a month since my husband went to heaven. He was only 51 and in absolutely incredible physical shape, investing most of his life in health and fitness, so this is quite a shock. Honestly, I thought that with the level of care we took with our health that a physical illness wouldn’t be something that either of us would have to worry about at a young age.

But I have painfully and humbly learned that is not always the case. It’s certainly important to take care of our health and fitness to have a good quality of life, but nobody knows the day of our last breath but God. I can tell you that in the midst of the one of the most difficult things that any person can walk through, losing a spouse that you have been with for 29 years and madly in love with, the one thing that astounds me is the level of peace that God has surrounded me with during this time.

I had been studying Bible for many years in how to walk in God’s peace and have truly been tested with the most heartbreaking thing a spouse can experience. But what I have seen is that the peace of God is real. A relationship with God is real. Even in pain, disappointment, grief, and despair, you can still trust Him, even in difficult, life-altering times.
I know we can read scriptures about God’s peace sustaining us past our understanding, but when the level of tragedy like this happens, we truly see how much of that we actually experience. Where you actually see that word alive in your life, affecting your experience.

I have been so grateful to see how real the peace of God is while it’s been sustaining me in this terrible loss, for it has been saturating me! Thank you to the 140 people who were at his memorial, many from the community and our team. Many said it was very powerful and impacted them greatly, including the poem that was written in the midst of my grieving and trying to process why this has happened.

Although we will not always have the answer to that question, the key is to still trust God’s plan, even if we don’t have the answer. If you would like to see the poem, “Even in My Pain, I Trust You”, it’s in a five-minute video, you can check it out here: SamanthaTaylorFitness.com/Drew
You can also see my husband’s Celebration of Life memorial, as I tell his story and our love story, for it’s a powerful one. He was my personal trainer when I was age 17, and he is the reason why we even started Samantha Taylor Fitness as well as he helped build it. Because of my husband motivating me to become a personal trainer, we have trained over 7500 women since.

I have seen now more than ever that the peace of God is very real, even in tragedy. And that is what I have hope in, not only from God’s sustaining peace for me but also the wonderful thought that my husband is in heaven right now experiencing absolute glory, where the Bible says the angels shout day and night, “Holy, holy, holy is the Lord!!!!”

Samantha Taylor
www.SamanthaTaylorFitness.com

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